Supplication, Part 2

When we ask God for something, we need to be ready and willing to receive His help.  If it's important enough for us to get down on our knees seeking God's help, we need to honor that by being willing to do whatever He deems is our part.  Sometimes He presents opportunities that blow our minds, other times He changes our course, and in response to many requests He gives us opportunities to hear His still, small voice directing us in one choice at a time that add up to a powerful change in our situation.
Such was the case for me today after asking God’s intervention in my weight gain that is becoming a health alarm. All day I felt God’s leadership in eat this, not that; that’s enough, no more; drink water instead of eat; your stomach doesn’t need more solids to digest right now; just one chunk of granola, no more. 
His directions guided my eating choices all day; however, it wasn’t until I had finally called it a day and came in for the last time and just had to sit down before washing up to start preparing dinner.  I was mostly exhausted and just a little bit hungry.  I had piddled all day trying to transplant some arugula seedlings, so it’s not like I burned many calories.  Still, I got down my jar of homemade granola and a bag of unsweetened chocolate baking squares, knowing I shouldn’t.  I got one piece of granola and sensed God telling me that was enough before dinner.  Yet it was so satisfying that I just had to have one more piece.  Then I thought the chocolate would pair nicely with the flavor in my mouth.  I ended up eating three bites of granola and three chocolate squares. 
This doesn’t seem a sinful amount, but I didn’t need those 300 calories two hours before dinner.  I wanted it but didn’t need it.  It was after I had eaten more than I should that I acknowledged God had been leading my food choices all day after I prayed asking for His help.  I had to ask for His forgiveness because I realized I had asked for His help and wasn’t willing to receive it.  I pray that He will continue to lead my food choices and that I will be aware of and submissive to His leading in this and all matters.